You are not going to become a different person about this, and it is not required.
You are going to stay quiet, and you are going to stay.

Staying is the entire change. Learn one name a month.
Start with whoever is on the desk on a wet Sunday with six cars in the car park —
it is the easiest name in the building to come by
and you have walked past it in the rain a hundred times.
Twelve a year. Four years to know the room.
You have given four years to worse and come away with less.

The Book of the Ghost — Return 38:4